I am a horrible person, who knew.

So, the person I thought to be my best friend thinks I am a horrible person. Who knew? I sure didn't. Our fight took place via text message yesterday because of a recent trip we took together. Here is our text conversation:

E: When are you going back to work?

N: Dude. I don't know. I have a lot of sh*t going on right now.

E: Ok. Is there someone you work with that can take care of it then becuase bill is going to be due soon and Jimmy is going to kill me.

N: No. Not going to risk someone else losing their job.

E: I understand that and I know you have stuff going on but you told me that this would get taken care of as soon as you got home. And now it's been three weeks so I'm kind of starting to freak out.

N: Actually I told you when I get back to work and no you don't understand. Have you even called to see how I was doing or to even talk? No only thing I have heard from you was about your cell bill and credit card. So while you worry about Jimmy being pissed I'm gonna worry about the fact that I just lost custody of Bryce, suspended from my job, and have one week to move out of my apartment and find a place to sleep at night.

N: And in all seriousness, I think it is real sh*tty that you actually want me to pay you back when I'm going to have to pay for the $800 vactaion that you so unappreciate.

E: You knew from the beginning that I couldn't afford the cruise. And you decided to tell your dad that you would pay for it. You didn't tell me until I asked you for the money you said you'd pay me back for on the boat. You said multiple times that you'd pay me back. You should have told me you were going to have to pay for it in the first place.

E: I do appreciate the cruise and I thanked your Dad multiple times. You lied to me. Sorry things are crappy but you have put me a in a really crappy situation. I don't have the money for my cell phone bill. Forget the other money, but my cell phone bill is what I'm worried about. It wasn't necessary for you to call your boy 3 times a day.

N: After everything I just said to you and you brought up money again. You have changed Elysia into a way different person. You have become very selfish. You will have your money I owe you and then I think that we should no longer talk with someone that thinks they are better then everyone because of who and what they married into. It's all good. I now understand why you and Janie do not talk anymore. You have forgotten who you are and where you came from. Turning into what everyone else wants you to do and be, so good for you.

E: That's not it at all Nikole. I don't think I'm better than anyone. I am so sorry that things are happening like they are. I think you are completely misunderstanding me. I am just really conscious of my credit so this is freaking me out. You are wrong. I'm wanting to get it taken care of soon so I don't have to ask Jimmy for money.

N: He is your husband and you don't want to have to ask Jimmy for money. Ok yeah. Like I said becuase you are so worried about asking Jimmy for money but you will tell me even though I bet you guys have food and a big nice house and a brand new car. You got it, when I get paid in 3 weeks you will have the money for the cell billl. You really have no clue. None. And it really does not matter as long as you have your sh*t taken care of. So not much more to say other than will send it on when I get paid in three weeks.

E: My things have nothing to do with this Nikole. Neither does my husband. The way you talked about it on the boat you made it seem like it wouldn't be an issue to pay me back. Sorry I didn't know what was going on, you didn't call me either.

N: Like I said, you will have it in 3 weeks. can't do anything other than that cause I have no money right now at all. Not even a penny. So I will call to get your address when I get paid. And sayin thank you does not mean sh*t if you don't show it. Actions speak way louder than words.

E: What do you want me to say? Don't pay me back. I don't want your money. I'm sorry things are sh*tty. I'm sorry I got the hell out of Idaho. I do not forget where I cam from. It is my motivation every day. The bottom line is you lied to me. Friends don't lie to each other.

N: Maybe you are not getting the point. I don't give a sh*t what you have or that you got out of Idaho. Back to you think you are better then everyone. There is not a point to keep talking about this. You will have your money in 3 weeks and have lost a friend. Did not lie I just did not tell you.

E: I don't think I am better than anyone... ever. And you are the one losing a friend over this. I never brought that up. You seem set on pushing me away over this. It's sad. I'm sorry.

N: Exactly Elysia. read some of the sh*t you just said. You don't think you are better than anyone but I'm losing a friend. Right. Ok. Anyways don't care anymore, so yeah.

E: I meant that you are the one making that decision. You are the one ending a ten year friendship over money and it makes me sad. That's what I meant. Don't take my words out of context.

N: It's not just over money actually. And not gonna talk about it anymore.

E: Fine. Don't know what to say at this point anyway. You are wrong.

N: You can't tell me I'm wrong about something I feel. They are my feelings so I'm not wrong.

E: I just mean for thinking what you are about me and for wanting to throw away 10 year of friendship.

So the premise is this: Nikole called me in October saying that her Dad was taking us on a cruise. He wanted her to go and she wanted to bring a friend so he was paying. It then came to light that he wanted me to pay him back after he bought the tickets, I said that wasn't what I was told, so I couldn't go, she said, "Oh never mind, he'll just pay for it." Apparently she lied but this didn't come out until later.

After we were on the boat, she realized that her cell phone would not turn on. She then asked if she could use mine while we were on the boat. I said no. She works for T-Mobile, so she said that she would just take it off my account when she got back to work. Now apparently, she is suspended from her job and I am stuck with an $800 cell phone bill. Her phone calls make up almost $700 of the bill. When I ask her about paying me back is where she throws in that her dad is making her pay for the cruise.

I am not a heartless person. I understand that she is having a hard time in her life. But, she lied to my face that she had the money and would pay me back. If she had been up front about not being able to afford it from the beginning then things would be different.

So you tell me... am I being heartless?